We didn’t make it,
You couldn’t change,
I couldn’t forget.
I felt others were more supportive and positive,
You made others seem more important.

Congrats Gamers

Congratulations,
You did more than burn me with that damn cigarette,
You may have burned a part of my soul too,
Because I almost believed those tears and lies.

Congrats to you too young man,
You may have threw me off a bit,
Perhaps it was a tad bit upsetting,
The news of your something new.

Congratulations gamers.

…………….

Honesty with myself will take me to the next level.

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Flash Forward: This is the story of a girl. ..

She has decided to say, “no more.”
No more will these men dictate her life. No more will their opinions and games keep her preoccupied. She wants to know what it is like to live for her. No longer does she NEED a man to define her. She NEEDS to take a new journey and discover the diamond she is meant to be.

“He will never see you as the diamond because he’s stuck seeing the rough, he’ll never value you as the diamond because he met you in the rough and couldn’t see beyond it. ” She thought to herself as she laid down to take a nap. Thinking she should return her ring.

“You’re only looking to be young again so bad! ” She agrees to his statement, he’s right, she’s getting back the years she wasted playing the “wife” role to those who hadn’t given her actual “wife” status. She doesn’t want that role anymore but rather she wants to enjoy the youth she has left and build her own image again. An image not blocked by living in the shadows of a man.

Though she loves him, she knows she cannot commit to him. She cannot commit to anyone. Though she can even admit she has some feelings towards the younger man as well, she will not be moved by him either. She won’t be moved until she’s ready. She won’t be moved until correct action on behalf of the one that chooses to pursue her properly say he’s worth that move. Until that day that somebody comes along, she’s focused on being satisfied with herself.

She’s a DIAMOND and you have to be GREAT to rock her! Because she shines bright on her own.

Song added 9-12-16

Crossroads

Love is a funny thing
They say there’s a difference between being “in love” and loving someone
Here I am in a pickle
I love a man who put a ring on my hand again but I’m in love with my dreams
And I don’t want to give up on them for the sake of love,
I’ve done that so many times that I became unsatisfied with my life,
And it’s not fair to have to make such a big decision right on the edge of it all.
I’m at the fork in the road.
One side is a promise of love and to give me the world if I trust this man and settle down,
The other side is a risk of losing the chance to ever encounter that again, along with no promise to succeed just chasing a few dreams and believing success is possible.
One side offers trust and stability,
The other requires faith and hard work.
One side offers companionship and a 2 parent home for my kids,
The other may require a lot of lonely nights and stepping in to be both mommy and daddy still.
So, I’m praying, God why do I have to choose? !?

I could REALLY use a good honest friend right now, that’s as real as it gets.

I only need you for your kisses

I only need you for your occasional kisses,
I got the rest covered.
My kids/family give me LOVE,
The real thing.
My job gives me money,
My faith gives me hope,
My dreams give me vision,
My God gives me direction.
My passions create paths,
My self confidence gives me validation.

You,
Well,
You give me pleasure,
When I chose to indulge.

Want to give me more?
Show me!
And I’ll let you know IF I decide I’ll allow you to.

Ms. ME