She’s A Glitch

I’m not friendly anymore,
I don’t know if it was having children or just the loss of trust in people since having them that caused this.
Not that my children are to blame,
They aren’t at all.
I just experienced a lot during that time,
And I don’t know “friendship” anymore.
I desire it and fear it all at once.
Maybe I’m just too selfish.
I used to care about people,
I used to want to make a difference in other’s lives.
I still want to be different and be inspirational but I don’t really want to get close to people.
I don’t know what happened to the person I once was but she died.
And I don’t hate who I am now,
I feel I’m growing but I still don’t get this void.
I don’t know how to fix this glitch.

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Demolition

Well, that smile though on the outside seemed reciprocated must have just been for you girl.
If this was a building I’d say it’s been demolished,
Though it seemed as if there were plans to rebuild it on a better foundation and remove the single pane windows,
It has turned out to be that this is not the case.
Though many things seem to be crumbling down again,
Trust God my dear,
Just keep trusting and don’t stop believing.

“Without faith it is impossible to please God…”

Little Surprises

Surprise, surprise.
All that worrying for a moment,
You silly woman,
Don’t you remember,
“If you’re going to pray don’t worry,
And if you’re going to worry don’t pray.”
At the end of the day (literally),
The big obstacles and setbacks didn’t quite matter,
Seeing and recognizing the little things did.
It caused you to smile again,
From the inside out!

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